The unbearable pain of silent suffering

You burden my heart with sorrow,
With the pain hidden in you.
Allow me to share your problems,
If not relive them with you.

A strange impact

It is strange that the impact of someone in my life could be so huge. Till date, I knew to think only of myself, but suddenly now I think about him. And then I realize that I think of nothing other than him. His memories wake me at four in the morning and keep me busy all day. His words keep ringing in my ears, his loneliness aches my heart and, for no reason, I have suddenly stopped thinking of myself.

God help me and spare me the trouble, for I know not what I am doing. I am afraid to tread the unknown path of pain and longing and wish to return to who I was, free of emotional baggage and worries.

My emotions at play

His smile makes me smile,
And his tears make me cry.

His silence makes me crazy,
His words give me relief.

I look into his eyes for answers,
instead I find more questions
and a vast sea of loneliness.

I wish to extend my hand to him,
but fear of being pushed back.

I walk beside him under the open sky,
Looking for answers to his questions and mine.

I

I fear to look at what is left behind
I am eager to look at what lies ahead
What I left behind is my past
What lies ahead me is my future
My past is not dark, but is full of grays
My future may not be bright, but is full of rays
What I have left behind is my innocence
What I have embraced is diplomacy
I have put a mask on my face for the world to see
My real self is hidden, but not lost
I am full of disbelief, but have not lost belief
I rush forward as I fear to fall backward.